Reason to be fit #0091

To be honest, I have no idea where to begin. I've been pondering this very thought for quite some time, which is the reason that my weight has stayed the same. However, my theory begins with this blog.

I am THAT person that needs motivation, inspiration and encouragement from friends, family,the guy down the street, ANYONE! I will be the first one to admit I have no will power to accomplish anything dealing with my weight unless, however, I am pushed.

For example, back in the years 2004-2006 I played field hockey. (and I was definitely the most fit I have ever been in my life). Although field hockey was a choice and not a requirement, I had my teammates around me every day to push me to go further than I had ever been before. I accomplished a lot in those two year to get to where I was by the time I graduated high school. What happend, you might ask? Oh, just a 7 letter word.....COLLEGE. To be fair, I cannot simply blame college on why I gained the freshmen 15 and then some. I made poor choices when it came to food and became very lazy with working out. The reason? No motivation. I was on my own....without the ladies that pushed me so hard for the two years before college.

Six years later, I am defnitely not even close to where I was when I graduated high school or where I want to be with my weight.

I have tried diets that seem to work for a few weeks, but then I just gain the weight back. For myself it is not the food intake that I have a problem with....its the exercise and my total lack of will-power whatsoever.

So this is it. I am putting it all out there for everyone to see. I might not have many followers, but the very thought that this blog, my weight, and my pictures are out there for anyone in the world to see, to judge me without even knowing me (and I know EVERYONE does, even if it is just in their thoughts!) scares the living hell outta me. It gives me that little push that I, at least, need to help me start this journey.

I have been going back and forth with the idea of actually putting my weight on here. Yes I want to do it because I want to visually see the changes. No I dont want to do it becasue then everyone will actually KNOW my weight.  Truthfully, I am disgusted and ashamed at how much I weigh. The funny part about my actual weight is that when people guess my weight, they usually guess about 20 pounds lighter than I actually am. Now whether they are doing that to be nice, or they truthfully think that is the god-awful thought that I wonder myself. Maybe I will just post the weight on my fridge for now until I become more comfortable. At the end of the post today, I am posting a picture of myself now. Hopefully everytime I post a picture, there are some kind of results...even if it is just the slightest bit of change.

(hopefully!) Everyday I will post about my choices I have made towards MY weightloss journey, whether good OR bad. During this journey I not only hope to shed the pounds and become a more healthy and fit person, but I hope to grow mentally and spiritually as well.

Here's to a new beginning!

ME! - August 2012